“Mary, you don’t update your blog anymore. Are you quitting?”
“No, I just took a break.”
I have been blogging for years now, and sometimes, you just get tired of trying to keep up with all the pressure it may drown you in, especially after you choose it to be your career, your “job”.
I know, I should be grateful. And I am, really.
But recently, I was traveling, and I met a couple of people at the airport, we were waiting for the same very delayed flight, as it was raining pretty hard. They were probably married, they sat down beside me, asked me a bunch of questions, and as soon as I told them I was a writer, they got excited. The guy told me that I was really brave for choosing writing as a career. “Not many people are as brave as you are. Leaving the normal 8 to 5 job is pretty scary, you know.”
Yes, I definitely know. Four years ago, I had a day job and I worked there for two years before I decided to write. It’s CRAZY scary. But then, as long as you learn how to believe in yourself, how you can do it and how it can make you happy, everything will be okay.
But I took a break from blogging. For one, I felt like I had to gather more ideas and inspiration before I can actually make content again. I feel like I was in a rut for a while, I was stuck between always tired (I do other things aside from blogging) and always uninspired, and that’s okay. It’s normal for people to need breaks once in a while, even from something they love to do.
I have been down with the flu the past couple of days, and then two days ago, Martial Law has been declared in the Mindanao islands because of terrorist attacks. Today, I woke up feeling horrible, images of dead people flashing in my mind. I see these photos all over Facebook lately, and it’s just driving me insane. I have been constantly praying, and I’m hoping that everyone is helping pray for peace as well. It helps a lot knowing that there’s something to hold on to, that God is never going to leave us, but then my heart is just so broken. I logged out of my personal Facebook account today and I’m planning to stay away from my newsfeed for a couple of days. Blog posts will probably still automatically be posted on my Facebook page, but I will NOT be checking my newsfeed for now. I need a few days, maybe three. Just three. Give me three.
Guess who’s back?
So, I decided to “try” blogging again.
I have realized that we are so small and the world is huge: we cannot handle so many problems all at once, we cannot contain these crazy thoughts and worries all at the same time, because we do not have that kind of superpowers. We need to take breaks from things once in a while, and we come back even better and stronger than before.
What is new with the blogging world, anyway? How’s it going?
Author: Mary Elizabeth Francisco
A huge fan of chocolate chip cookies. Hypertensive. Loves ice cream and taking pictures of the sky. Believes that coffee makes the world a better place. Just a girl, not a hero. Not yet, that is.