Just to give you a tiny bit of a recap here… I have ditched resolutions for several years now. In fact, every new year, my resolution was to not have any resolutions, because really, why would you want to change something wrong only if it’s a new year? Can’t you do that around July?
I even almost joined this crazy “Fvck Resolutions Movement”, or something similarly named, I forgot what it was actually called, but you get my point. I didn’t really like the idea of the whole making changes because it’s a new year thing. It’s juvenile, for crying out loud. I feel like we do it just because other people are doing it, and so it becomes this whole societal chain that goes around every December or January of every single year, for the love of all the french fries I ate for dinner, please just make it stop.
So lately, I have been feeling a little blue. Okay, well, not a little, I have been feeling sad. Big sad, not little. And it has been a rough start of the year. But no matter what the month is, or the day, or the time, life does that to everyone sometimes ~ it just punches you in the face and you are not even notified that it’s coming right at you. All the drama needs its own separate article though, so enough said. I have been reading around the pages of the internet world, and read some pretty cool 2018 resolutions of people. At first, I was like, Oh my, how silly these people are. But then, I realized, here I was, sad and alone, reading other people’s plans and goals for the year. At least, they had goals, some things to look forward to. At least, they knew what shit they were supposed to clean up, which shit, yada yada.
I got to thinking… I can do (some of) that, too. And I didn’t want it to just be for this year. I wanted it to be an infinite resolution ~ the daddy shark of all resolutions, if you get what I mean.
Planners have been in my life for as long as I could remember, but in the past ten years or so, I only had one planner looking happy and “used”. Like when I first got Tita Witty’s planner, I think it was in 2011, I was really excited like crazy, and I wrote on it all day everyday, until I got tired around June or July, and just stopped writing on it. And that’s what happened year after year after year. You cannot blame me, my handwriting looks like shite, and I hate it when it would feel like I was ruining a perfectly good (and blank) planner page. This isn’t a big deal, but hey, the Infinite Resolutions will take time to, you know, develop to other things that are actually bigger and would matter to you, the world.
So there. Keeping up with the planning world could be one. Another this is this blog. I have been out of it for as long as I can remember. You know… A few years ago, people would tell me how blogging is too overrated. That it’s a bit too odd to write something and put it out there for all the world to see. And I would always say that I feel otherwise. I would say that blogging makes you less anxious than you actually should, because the mere fact that you are able to write down everything you want to say, like you’re actually talking to a friend, is pretty cool. And I want to go back to feeling that way about blogging. I think, it used to serve as some sort of… Well, , therapy? You know, when you’re sad or mad or worried or anxious or heartbroken, you can simply just blog about it and you’d feel a tad bit better.
New Year’s resolutions are okay, I guess. If it means a clean slate, and you doing better in life, and actually trying, then do whatever it is that makes you happy. After all, it’s you living your life, not other people. So, if you’d like to cut back on the soda (I have, two months now) or if you want to quit smoking because you feel like your lungs are starting to complain, then do it. It actually doesn’t always have to be the start of the year for you to do something nice for yourself. Remember that you are important and you are worth all the good things in the world.
And you know the drill: be positive at all times, keep holding on to the Lord, believe that everything happens for a reason, be grateful for everything (including the tiny little things), and just live it. We’ll be fine.