I didn’t even know what title this post needed. Imagine that? I was talking to a friend the other day. I told her that I feel like it’s Writer’s Block all over again for me. And she was like… “Nah, I don’t believe in Writer’s Block. It’s all in your head. It’s just you telling yourself that you can’t, when in fact, this whole time, you actually can, if you get what I mean.”
And I did get what she meant. I used to not believe in Writer’s Block myself. I mean… Block? What the heck is that? People who claim to have it are just giving reasons not to be able to come up with something at the time when they need to. Well, I thought that was what it was. But you wouldn’t really know until you feel it for yourself.
So, what is it really, this Writer’s Block we hear about all the time? I think the block part is not exactly only for writers. Maybe, it’s supposed to be called something like “Artistic Juices Block” or something synonymous. The Writer’s Block is when a writer, to put it simply, experiences a creative slowdown. You’re not able to write like you used to. You feel uninspired, like there aren’t any creative juices flowing out of you at any point of the day. Sucks, right?
This probably explains why I haven’t written on the blog for the past couple of, what, months. And I do want to try and restore that cool blog this used to be.
Today, out of the blue, Ian told me: “I don’t really mind what you want to do, I will always be here to support you, as long as you’re doing something you are happy with.” Out of the blue, we weren’t even talking about writing or anything close, for that matter. Two weeks ago, I was having a personal dilemma as to whether I should keep this website up and live, or just let it go. I have received warning emails, the website will expire, the domain will be suspended, you know, those annoying emails you get when they need your money. I was going to let it go. I told myself I wouldn’t be losing that much, anyway. I wasn’t posting that many articles anymore, and most of my old content got deleted when the website crashed last year. So what was there to lose?
Well, myself. I was going to lose a part of me that was once so dedicated to writing on MarshMary. And I didn’t want that. It would be easy to let it all just go, and I could move along. But you’ll never know what you lose until you lose it.
And so, here I am. Tada. I haven’t really gotten the hang of it back yet, but I’m getting there. It’s always nice to feel like you’re doing something again for the first time, if you get what I mean. Like when I thought I forgot how to ride a bike, and when I tried riding again it ten years later, I realized, I still can.
The point is… If you are struggling about something in your life right now, remember to never give up on yourself. It will take time to learn to appreciate doing the little things, like you’re back to square one, but in the end, at least, you will have grown even better than you were the first time around.